Friday, January 7, 2011

Megan The Real Me...

Doing this www.Mamavation.com Mom Campaign has inspired me to do this post.
I am Megan and I am a Christian. I am a mother to 3 young boys ages 10,7, and 6 and 2 of them are autistic and they all have a multitude of other diagnosis's to go along with them. But I love them and our crazy little life. I am morbidly obese and that affects my daily life. I have sleep apnea and borderline high blood pressure. I come from a very obese family. I really can't name a single person in my family when I was growing up that wasn't over weight.
I have over come a lot of obstacles in my life and they have made me stronger. I grew up in a single parent home with my mom, grandma and brother. I was a single teen parent way before 16 and pregnant came out on MTV. I had my first son at 16, second at 18 left an abusive relationship with what we could fit in the trunk of a car and then met my husband a few months later and had my 3rd son at age 20. I was never a teeny tiny barbie but I was at a healthy weight before I got pregnant with my 1st son.
My brother is morbidly obese and my mom is over weight too. My mother has diabetes and luckily now it is being very controlled but she has lost toes due to her diabetes. Heart disease and high blood pressure runs in our family. I don't want that for me.
I am a SAHM and help my in laws with their rental properties. But with the boys and all the issues they have we have felt it best if I stay home. We don't have the family lifestyle where it is easy to go to the gym nor right now can we afford to buy gym memberships. But I know if I am chosen I will do EVERYTHING in my power to be the best I can be!


Its always been a joke with a lot of my online friends that they all know what my kids, pets and husband look like but not me. I never take pictures of myself because I don't like what I look like I don't like I hate this weight. The boys have recently learned they LOVE going to places like Carowinds. I spent most of the time sitting and watching because I was too scared to even try to get on some of the rides because it would be so embarrassing if I couldn't fit into the seat. When we go to the water park I normally sit and watch them because you aren't going to catch me in my bathing suit in the middle of carowinds. I'm not that crazy.
I want to be the mother that the boys deserve. I want to be the person that is inside me begging and pleading to come out. I want to be healthy. I need to be able to run and play and enjoy life with my children. They need me. My boys are runners. I have to be able to run and catch them
Their are a lot of moms that are applying to be the next Mamavation Mom and I'm hoping that I am chosen to be the next Mamavation Mom it would be a life altering Experience for my family. It would be a blessing for all of us. All the Moms that are applying are wonderful and have already been a great support for me. Please join me in this experience. Even if I am not chosen to be the next Mamavation Mom I will overcome this obstacle.

This is me now.... Im sitting here going be brave be brave just do it. But its so hard to face these pictures.. This is me now but not for long.....











4 comments:

bookieboo said...

Don't I wish you lived in Los Angeles. You have such a great story to tell. But you WILL lose this weight, 5 lbs. at a time with us!

Shelley (@momma_oz) said...

I am SO very proud of your courage to post here! you are an amazing person and with or without becoming a Mamavation Mom I'm here to support you on this journey in any way that I can! WTG!

Heather said...

I'm bawling...because I am SO FREAKING PROUD OF YOU!

I hope you are chosen too...

And if you're not...I will be your biggest cheerleader.

momtojesse said...

I'm so proud of you girl!!!!!