Sunday, April 24, 2011

ReStart....

I have decided its time to restart my engines.... I took a couple of weeks off to get my head on straight and things in order in my life because CHAOS was surrounding me and I was going INSANE.

I spent time today reflecting on the last 26 years of my life. I use this term a lot it really has been a roller coaster ride. I've always done things very quickly but this is the one battle that I am not going to solve quickly and I am learning how to come to terms with this. I mean I started having kids very young. *I don't advocate Teen Parenting but I was a Teen Parent twice 16 and 18* So I grew up very quickly. When I met my husband our relationship moved very quickly. We met in September, moved in together in October and married beginning on December preg with number 3 in Feb. When our youngest was dx'd with Autism and multiple other issues I dove in head first and researched whatever I could find on it and became able to provide therapies to our sons as quick as I could. But it took many years to gain this weight and keep this weight on, why is it so hard to understand that its going to make time to take it off?

But I have decided that this is going to happen. I will become healthy and get to do the things that I want to do and to be able to be the mom my kids deserve. Its more than just losing weight, I need to work on learning how to handle stress and figure out a way to get Me time. So that I can keep my head on straight and everything in my life in order. I don't want my kids to have to worry about my health and my weight. I want them to grow up being active and healthy and being the best them they can be. I always get weird looks from the IEP Team when we go to do the boys annual reviews at school and they always ask What do I want for the Future for my child. The answer is always the same I want them to be happy healthy successful man. In whatever life they do so choose to live. That's what I want to provide them I want them to see that I didn't give up or take the easy way out in my weight loss journey.

Who in your world deserves a "shout out" this week for pushing you to better yourself? What did they do?
I have a few people that come to mind. First being Laura and Katie and Lori and Angela who are all Mamavation Sista's. I have really enjoyed spending time with them each day just being girls. They always motivate me and push me and make me laugh and keep me from going insane. Lori gives me great book advice and helped me ignite my passion for RPattz... These girls and the other mamavation moms really help me keep going.
*I wrote this blog post while participating in the Mamavation Blogging Carnival for a chance to win My Trainer Fitness 100 Calorie+ Workout featuring MizFitOnline from Mamavation.com*

7 comments:

MrsFatass said...

So glad you're back and ready to get back at it!

Homemom3 said...

Glad to see you are back. I agree it is very, very important to find me time. After having even just my first I totally dedicated my entire life to him, same with the other three and it wasn't until 4 years ago that I started noticing I was no longer me anymore. Late last year I started really soul searching and this year I decided that it was time to bring me back. I think it will do you good to do that. Do you have a gym nearby? Maybe you can workout there? I have one I just found that charged $4 for nonmembers for a class but it gives me me time so I think it'll be worth it. I hope you can figure this out and lose the weight. I am much like you and love diving in with all the info and hate waiting for the results. Good luck this week.

Grace Matthews said...

Glad that you are back. Sometimes we need to take a breather in this crazy life. Figuring out what is most important and trying to stick to weight loss goals can be challenging. The important this is that we recognize that we are only human and we are going to make mistakes, but it's okay. :)

Lena said...

We all have our journeys. I am applauding you on yours
Have a great week

Greta said...

Good for you!! You sound like you've got real resolve. I think it's great to take this time to do this for yourself. I'm here for you if you need anything!

Greta said...

PS - My mom had my sister and I at 16 and 18. I don't judge you for that.

kia said...

Megan, I am amazed at you and your journey and how well you have kept up with being a mom so young and working with your sons' diagnoses. I am proud of you for checking yourself at this stage of your life and working to get yourself straight in a direction you want. You have my support.